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  Besides, why should her lack of virginity matter so damned much?

  “’Tis not as though you’re a virgin,” she snapped, which she knew was a mistake even before Rory rattled off a long string of Gaelic curses that included slanderous statements about her, her family, and the entire Douglas clan.

  He leaned over her, his face hard and angry, and demanded, “Who was he?”

  How could he ruin what had just happened between them? She had felt so close to him when they made love, as if their very souls had touched and become one. And now he was ranting at her. And worse, he was making her remember things that she had vowed never to think of again.

  “I won’t do this!” She tried to hold her hands over her ears, but he held her down by her wrists, trapping her.

  “Tell me,” he said, leaning down until his face was an inch from hers.

  He was frightening her now, and she was having none of that.

  “I was forced,” she spat out, and shoved him hard. “Now get off me!”

  She rolled onto her side and held herself in a ball, overwhelmed both by Rory’s anger and by the memories that she had succeeded in burying for so long.

  “Oh, God, Sybil.” Rory rested his hand on her shoulder and his voice was thick with emotion. “Ye were raped?”

  Rape was what it had felt like, though her husband had the right to do what he did to her.

  She stared into the embers of their dying campfire and remembered how much her grandfather’s betrayal had hurt her. She had idolized him as only a young girl can, and he had always told her she was his favorite. When she learned he had arranged the marriage to that despicable man, she was so sure she could change his mind.

  He turned a deaf ear to her pleas to release her, or at least to delay the marriage until she was older. The political and material benefits to the family outweighed the certain unhappiness it would bring her, and so the marriage went forward as planned. At least it was brief.

  “I will kill him,” Rory said.

  “Ye can’t,” she said. “He’s already dead.”

  “I wish I’d been there to protect ye.” Rory ran his hand up and down her arm. “And failing that, I wish I’d been the one to kill him.”

  “What I wish,” she said, “is that ye had taken me away before it happened.”

  “I should have been gentle with ye,” he said in an anguished voice. “I meant to be, but I wanted ye so much. And then, when I realized ye weren’t a virgin… Well, I didn’t understand that I still needed to be careful with ye.”

  “Ye didn’t hurt me,” she said. “Not until afterward.”

  ***

  Rory was awash in guilt. He had been an unfeeling brute, and that is what she would remember of the night he made her his wife.

  “I am sorry for being such an arse.”

  “Ye were angry,” she said in a flat tone, still with her back to him. “It doesn’t matter.”

  “I was angry,” he said, “but that’s no excuse.”

  He’d been angry because his pride was hurt when he discovered his bride had not saved herself for their marriage. And even more than his pride, it had torn him up inside to think of another man having Sybil before him.

  Or ever.

  “It does matter that I hurt you.” He gently rolled her onto her back so that he could look down into her face as he said it. “It matters verra much to me.”

  “I want to believe that,” Sybil whispered.

  He knew how much she hated to show any vulnerability and that it cost her to let him see the tears glistening in her eyes. He kissed her forehead.

  “I don’t want to disappoint ye like the men in your family,” he said. “I will keep ye safe, and I’ll do my best to make ye happy.”

  “Ye have a good heart, Highlander,” she said, and rested her palm against his cheek.

  At her touch, desire surged through him, but he dared not hope that she would let him make love to her again tonight.

  When she gave him a soft, lingering kiss on the lips, his heart swelled with an overwhelming tenderness. His bride was more forgiving than he deserved.

  “Make love to me again,” she whispered. “Give me a night to remember.”

  This time, he savored every moment, every touch, every sigh. He would never have enough of her.

  Hours later, he held his sleeping wife in his arms as he watched the dawn break in pink and gold over the green hills. His wife. He liked the sound of that.

  The question was finally settled. Sybil had made her choice, and there was no going back. Last night they had consummated their marriage—repeatedly. He drew in a deep breath and sighed. She was good and truly his now.

  The road ahead would not be easy, and the loss of his brother lay heavy on his heart. But having won Sybil’s trust and commitment, he felt as if he could accomplish all the tasks that lay before him.

  CHAPTER 18

  Sybil snuggled closer to Rory. All she wanted was to stay right here in his arms and pretend this would not end.

  “How are ye this morning?” Rory asked, and kissed her hair.

  “Good.” She leaned back and grinned at him. “Verra good.”

  She could not remember ever feeling this happy and at peace—and she refused to spoil this moment by thinking of how brief their time as lovers might be.

  “No regrets?” he asked.

  “None.” Their lovemaking had been a revelation, from the fiery passion to the moments of unbearable tenderness. She’d never dreamed that making love could be like it was with Rory. Somehow he made her feel precious and yet utterly free at the same time.

  “If you’d kept me waiting any longer,” Rory said, “it might have killed me.”

  They both laughed, but then he went quiet.

  “What’s wrong?” she asked.

  “I can’t say I’m sorry we didn’t wait.” He brushed the back of his fingers against her cheek. “But I do wish it could have been like ye wanted.”

  “Like I wanted? Don’t let this go to your head, but I can’t imagine it being any better.” She felt her cheeks go warm.

  “Ach, lass, we’ll never get up today if ye say things like that to me.”

  A smile curved his lips as he leaned down to kiss her. By the saints, how could she resist him? And why would she ever want to?

  Sometime later, they lay side by side staring up at the midmorning sky, their bodies glistening with sweat beneath the blanket despite the nip in the air. Rory clasped her hand where it rested over his heart.

  “When I said I wished last night could have been like ye wanted,” he said, “I meant I wish it had been in the best bedchamber in a MacKenzie castle after we said vows before my clansmen and celebrated our marriage with a grand feast, music, and dancing.”

  “What?” Sybil sat up, clutching the blanket to her chest.

  “Though we’re already husband and wife,” Rory said with an earnest expression, “I promise we’ll have a marriage celebration with a fine gown for ye to wear and all the rest of it.”

  “But I’m not your wife.” She was so startled that she blurted out the words.

  “After what we’ve done, ye most assuredly are.” A warrior’s glare replaced the warmth that had been in Rory’s eyes the moment before.

  “But I never agreed to marry ye.” She clutched the blanket to her chest and shook her head. “We said no vows.”

  “A marriage contract plus consummation,” Rory said between clenched teeth, “makes a binding marriage.”

  She’d forgotten about that damned contract. What had she gotten herself into? The only way she could persuade Rory they were not married was to tell him that they had no contract in the first place.

  “As for agreeing to it,” Rory said as he threw the blanket off, “I believe I heard ye say aye more than once on our wedding night.”

  Sybil knew she ought to tell him the truth now, that delaying might even make it worse. Yet she simply could not bring herself to do it. Rory’s stormy expression was not
what held her back, though that did not help. After all they had been through and all he’d done for her, how could she tell him the contract was nothing but a jest her brothers had played on him? How could she hurt his pride by saying he had traveled hundreds of miles and risked his life to rescue a woman to whom he owed no obligation whatsoever?

  Nay, she could not. Especially now, when he was grieving for his brother and carried the future of his clan on his shoulders. She must find another way out of this.

  “Now that you’re to be chieftain, we both know ye need a wife who’ll bring the support of a strong Highland clan with her,” she said. “I assumed ye would want us to destroy the contract now.”

  “’Tis too late for that now,” he growled.

  “Nay, ’tis not.” Sybil rested her hand lightly on his arm. “No one else knows about the contract.”

  He should be relieved that she was offering him an escape from a poor marriage. Instead, he looked as if she had slapped him.

  “Say ye don’t think so little of me.” Rory searched her face. “I’d never deceive and take advantage of ye like that.”

  Tears welled in her eyes because he was so damned honorable. He really did need to be more pragmatic if he was to survive as head of his clan.

  “Ye offered to destroy the contract if that’s what I wished,” she said. “Why should I not do the same for you?”

  “I offered to destroy it before we consummated the marriage,” he said. “Like it or not, we’re wed now.”

  “We gave in to lust.” Sybil fixed her gaze on the storm clouds on the horizon because she could not bear to look at him while she spoke of what happened between them as so much less than it was. “Your clan should not suffer for our weakness.”

  “You and I know the truth. We are husband and wife, and I’ll not deny it,” Rory said. “What kind of chieftain will I make if I’m not a man of my word? I’d be no better than Hector.”

  Rory meant what he said now, but Sybil knew how these things went. His advisors would pressure him to make a useful alliance, and his ambitions for his clan and for himself would eventually lead him to change his mind. If he did not deny the marriage outright, then he would employ the Highland custom of setting her aside to make a more advantageous match.

  This was precisely what he ought to do. And what she wanted him to do. For heaven’s sake, the last thing she wished for herself was to be trapped in marriage and under a man’s thumb forever.

  So why did the thought of Rory taking another woman for his wife make her feel miserable and murderous?

  ***

  We gave in to lust. Is that all Sybil thought it was?

  Their lovemaking had changed everything. The moment their bodies were joined, they became legally bound as man and wife. But it was more than that. When he was inside her, Rory felt as if their very hearts and souls were bound together.

  Each time he thought he understood Sybil, she confused him again.

  It pained him that she had not trusted him enough to tell him she was raped. How could she believe he would blame her for that? She was accustomed to men who lied to get what they wanted and then deserted her when it served their interests, but she should know him better by now. Had he not claimed her after she lost everything?

  She had been quick to forgive him for his foolish anger after their first time, and then she gave herself to him with such abandon that he believed he had finally gained her trust. Their lovemaking was nothing short of magical, a melding of two into one. Or so it had felt to him. And yet she believed he would deny what they’d done, deny that he’d made her his wife.

  She had been raised in the midst of ruthless royal politics, and she was right that a different wife could bring him an alliance he desperately needed. All the same, it troubled him that she had expected him to behave so poorly—and that she had been willing to bed him regardless.

  “We’d best be going.” He got up and started pulling on his clothes. “I’ll see to Curan.”

  Before he could walk away, she stood, holding the blanket about her shoulders, and brought him to a halt with the touch of her fingertips against his chest. He sucked in his breath. Though her fingers barely grazed him, they burned into his skin like hot irons.

  “I didn’t mean to insult you,” she said, looking at him with her fathomless violet eyes, “or to suggest last night did not mean as much to me as it did. I’ll hold the memory of it in my heart until the day I die.”

  A moment ago she had dismissed what happened between them as mere lust. Was she now just telling him what she thought he wanted to hear? Ach, he didn’t know what to think.

  “If the last weeks and months have taught me anything, it’s that we cannot know our future.” She took his face between her hands. “No matter what happens, I want ye to know, Rory Ian MacKenzie, that I treasure what is between us.”

  The blanket slipped off her shoulder, revealing her creamy skin, a compelling reminder that she was naked beneath the blanket, which in turn sparked vivid memories from the night before. If Rory had any resistance left, it went up in smoke when Sybil wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him with a fierceness that sent a fiery burst of need coursing through his veins.

  She gave herself to him with such warmth and enthusiasm, both then and in the days that followed, that he was sorely tempted to trust her. He wanted to believe she was as happy as she seemed to be wed to him.

  And yet he could not forget her startled denial when he first called her his wife.

  CHAPTER 19

  Rory studied his wife of three days as she cooked the hare he’d caught for their supper. Though she filled his nights with passion and his days with easy companionship, he kept watch for signs of her earlier reluctance to accept their marriage.

  When Sybil looked up and caught his gaze on her, she gave him a bright smile that warmed him from the inside out.

  “I had no notion that cooking could be so satisfying,” she said. “Imagining how horrified my brother Archie would be to see me makes it all the more enjoyable.”

  The lass seemed determined to be cheerful and adapt to whatever life handed her—even being wedded to him. Despite her efforts, he suspected his clan would not accept his Lowlander wife easily, especially when she could not speak their language.

  “’Tis time I began teaching ye Gaelic,” he said.

  “I already know it,” she said, with a wicked gleam in her eye. “Tell me, do ye call all the lasses mo rùin?”

  “Ye wee devil,” he said. “Why did ye not tell me?”

  “Ye never asked,” she said.

  This was yet another piece of information she had not trusted him with earlier, but he took it as a good sign that she shared it so readily now.

  “I confess there are some gaps in my knowledge,” she said. “Ye used a number of curses I’d never heard before that I’d like ye to teach me.”

  “Hmmph.” He held out his bowl for her to serve him a slice of the hare. “How did ye come to learn Gaelic?”

  “Our last king learned it to help him win the hearts of you Highlanders,” she said as she sat down beside him. “Naturally, my grandfather thought it wise that we Douglas lasses learn it as well.”

  “Why?” Rory asked around a mouthful of rabbit. It was only slightly burned this time, and he was hungry after another long day of travel, so it tasted delicious.

  “To impress the king.” Sybil gave him a conspiratorial wink. “Grandfather had high hopes that one of us would bear a royal bastard.”

  Rory choked on his food. The notion of Sybil’s innocence being used as bait for the king incensed him. “Did your father and mother not object to this?”

  “Grandfather was chieftain for fifty years, and his orders were followed.” Sybil shrugged. “Besides, the other noble families did the same with their daughters.”

  Rory was aware that many a Highland family was pleased when a daughter bore a chieftain’s child, but somehow that seemed different to him.

  “My m
other was deeply unhappy about it,” Sybil continued, “because her sister had an affair with the king when they were young, and it ended badly.”

  “How badly?”

  “She was murdered,” Sybil said.

  “Murdered?” He nearly choked again.

  “Powerful nobles in both the pro-French faction and the pro-English faction feared the young, lovesick king would marry my aunt instead of making a foreign alliance,” she said. “We never found out which side did it.”

  “O shluagh,” Rory said, calling on the faeries for help. “After your aunt was murdered, your family was willing to put you in the same position?”

  “There was no risk of the king wedding one of us, as he was already married by then to Margaret Tudor,” she said in a matter-of-fact tone and licked her fingers. “However, our blood tie to the king’s first love was viewed as a great advantage in the competition to become his mistress.”

  “Luckily ye weren’t old enough to be anyone’s mistress before the king died.”

  “My grandfather thought I was old enough,” she said. “But the Douglas’s hopes were really on Margaret. She’s the one with fair hair like our aunt’s.”

  Jesu.

  “Though we failed to entice the king,” Sybil said, “the queen knew about my grandfather’s plan. She holds it against me and my sisters.”

  “The queen was jealous, even after the king was dead and she married your brother?”

  “Archie’s infidelity only made it worse.” Sybil took Rory’s bowl from him and washed it as she discussed the queen of Scotland. “I’d wager she’s persuaded herself that all of us slept with the king.”

  She faced other dangers with him, but at least she was safe from the queen.

  Night had fallen while they ate their supper, and he was anxious to take his bride to bed. Sybil looked lovely in the glow of the firelight, and it seemed an awfully long time since they had made love that morning…

  “I want to help ye fight your uncle Hector,” she said, fixing him with a dead-serious look.